up and down

My days seem so up and down lately... but I've never gone to bed on a bad note at least. I always feel like I should sort myself out before I end the day: it keeps me sane. 

I really miss God. I know God is always there here everywhere, but a part of me misses Him. I can't really explain it? AH! what's the point haha, there's no way to explain relationships with God because they're all different (that's what's so amazing)... but yes, lately I do miss being completely submerged in Him.